|Friday, June 2nd, 2006|
|Monday, May 22nd, 2006|
ugg horrid week so horrid
today is my 1st day out.
It feels good.
tomorrow i start 2 outpatiant programs..
for over a month i have to go mon trew fri in oakland
fun..i realy doing want to go and im scared im going to fail and end up being an inpatiant for hecka long i mean a long long time
maybe miss my own wedding.
so how is everyone?
Current Mood: awake
|Sunday, May 14th, 2006|
|Friday, May 12th, 2006|
|Friday, March 31st, 2006|
my insides are rotting again...or they already are.
|Wednesday, March 8th, 2006|
|My insides are starting to rot again
Im so incredably sick and bored of myself.
I have lost any artisticness i ever had
I cant get a job.
I have no clothes and soon nowhere to live.
Im bored of my makeup, my hair , the same clothes or pjs i always wear.
I just want to throw myself at someone and be there little project
Ill save money and we can go shopping, even though i hate shopping
for clothes new boots and new makeup and some brushes to do it with oh and maybe some fun contacts
and just sit me there as your little painting pad and design me
redo my hair and dress me up. ill be your barbie doll for the day
but the only friend i have is tiffany and we rairly see eachother and i dont think shell want to do it
or maybe she will ..
If not any takers??
I would perfer to know you, but hey a new friend might be nice
if i dont know you tiffany will be there also..
ugg im having a cry for help or something.
my boobs got bigger and they hurt like hell
its weird i lost weight though..
im 98lbs again and i look bigger
its quite odd
You know what really sucks ,
ugg i hate it,
i cant drink or use anything i used before and its making me break out like a mad man on crack and red balls haha
being sober sucks
i wish i had something else to calm my nerves
I have to go to court tomorrow morning with my mummy
its the final court date for my parents splitting and she wants me to be at this one
my dad wont be near me so it will be okay but i could break down in there or something
that reminds me i can tell my dad my news now
i have to tell him so i have have my grandparents there
but im so scraed or worried that hes going to flip out and beat me and yell and totally kill all my purposes to live
yes im going to go over there and drop my little brother off and tell him in person sigh i think im going to start crying
adams scared that im going to relaps
sorry im all over the place but i hardly write in this
oh yeah im getting back into my massage so soon if anyones interested in paying a low price for an hou full body massage or just an half an hour to 45 mins on your back let me know so i can make some small cash and fix you. i have all the supplys i just need to practice more. ill let you know how mcu it will be soon, no more than 75 for sure <for the hour> it will probbly be way less than taht acctually becuase i know you and its been a while since i have been in school for it. but please dont be scared it would help me out a lot. exsoecially since i cant get a real job for a while
well im off because i need to use the ladies room
good mornings and have a fantastic day..
|Friday, February 10th, 2006|
as of right now
im so fed up of my relationship
|Tuesday, February 7th, 2006|
|Sunday, January 22nd, 2006|
where can i get synth/fake dreadlocks?
please help me
I want either ones I Can put in and out, or extentions.
|Thursday, January 19th, 2006|
I am going to attempt to write something in this...
So I went two months 1 week and a day with no drinking.
I have only drank about 3 times, and I'm now going to not drink again, and hopefully one day be completly sober from it.
Other than that all my pills are working great for me, I have gained weight, I am nnow at 102lbs.
Been a while since I broke a hundred. So I guess thats good news.
I have been missing a lot of people latly.
Like Tiffany and dani, among others.
ohh ohh I might start taking dnace again, I can't wait!
Adam and I are doing wonderful. If anyone cared to know...
On Friday I'm going to go attempt to get disability....But I may not be able to get it because my green card might not of made the cut off date, witch is stupid, but what am I going to do..eh...Oh something crazy happened to me, something you would never expect! But I'm only going to tell you in person what that is...Unless some loud mouth already told eveeryone, witch I'm sure of. I really don't know what else to say in this thing....oh yeah I'm bleaching my hair , well I did it once tonigt and I'm going to do it again tomorrow..woopwoop blonde nikole.
eww I got food poisined two days ago, ugh it was disgusting..my tummys still messed up a tid bit
well I do not know what else to say for now so im off
Current Mood: awake
|Friday, January 13th, 2006|
I sick and bored of all my music
|Tuesday, January 3rd, 2006|
|Thursday, December 1st, 2005|
|waste of time
I hate not being able to sleep and having to sit here quitely
Im boredsomeone entertain me
Im going gto go wake up adam
|Monday, November 14th, 2005|
|Friday, September 23rd, 2005|
|Fuck me sideways
I miss my slut.
I miss my boyfriend.
And this is my fith day of being sober.
I like vegan cookies
I think Thats my next goal.
No more fucking candy
Muahhahahaa Current Mood: bored
|Wednesday, September 14th, 2005|
|Thursday, September 8th, 2005|
|this was stupidly funny i guess
Boner: If your single
Makeout: If you like someone
Asshole: If you're taken
Titties: If you're taken BUT aren't committed (still talk to others)
Balls: If there is someone you really like, and are hoping they will ask you out.
Orgasm: If you're in love...
HIV: If you like being single
AIDS: if you're single n u hate it with a passion
STD: If you're heartbroken
Herpes: If you're cheating on someone
Pot Head: taken but not in touch with them alot
French Kiss: If you want someone you can never have
What are you?